Documenting my journey through the mental health system

I am so tired I can hardly keep my eyes open. I woke up late and had to rush to work late. I barely got a cup of coffee in me!

Haven’t slept much, or eaten much, in several days. I think I will sleep okay today. With meds.

There is one nurse that falls asleep blatantly at work. It’s comical. I could not imagine letting that happen to me. I’d be so groggy after. My mother couldn’t nap me as a child with my three brothers.

Driving to my new job is very triggering, even still. I’ve tried to plan an alternate route, but it takes me several minutes out of the way. I drive by the mental hospital and feel my heart beat faster, the feeling of being trapped.

It’s been five months since I started the new job. I’ve learned a lot along the way. I’m relieved to have an open-minded boss who came to rescue me from a completely wrong and inappropriate assignment. She showed me the float rotation and it now says Angel cannot float to any psych locations, only med/surg. It is the same for me at the VA, I cannot float to the psych unit.