Documenting my journey through the mental health system

The fundraiser flyer has been released, and I shared it all over my newly created Instagram as well as my Facebook.

I brought in a lot of business to Nyne at the drag show two weeks ago, and I’m hoping to get everyone to come out again. More than before. This fundraiser is a big deal to me, as it’s part of the Spectrum Singers’ lineup, a choir group I’d really like to join. I’m so incredibly excited their director invited me to sing at his fundraiser.

The theme is revolution and resistance! And immediately, Uprising by Muse came to mind. I have to be prepared for two numbers but will most likely only sing one. The second one is also a Muse song, Take a Bow. They’re both very politically charged and Uprising is really upbeat; it will be easy to get the crowd riled up with it.

You’ll see it’s hosted by Nova Kaine. I am Angel Falls-Kaine. She is my drag mom, and I can’t wait to see her! I will most likely seem like an entirely different person. A lot has changed, and I’m a lot more stable than I was then, and in the years that followed. I’ve really evolved as a performer and singer. Also, I’m not as broke! LOL!

Now I am preparing 4 songs for two different shows coming up. After the 4th it’s the Wednesday drag show at Nyne on the 8th and a few days after that I sing at the Fox with the Bartell choir. I sing a solo there too.

I saw my choir director for a private lesson on Friday. I’m taking some private lessons on the side. Because I have SO MUCH time for that.

It cuts into my sleep time a little bit, but I need all the help I can get. Some of the songs I am singing are difficult. She helped me zero in on At Last, the Etta James song I’ll sing at the April 8 drag show. A few spots I’m flat and that’s the worst; I hate falling flat.

I also just finished the Winter II quarter. I got As in both classes. At least that’s what they were before I submitted my final projects, 6 weeks in the making. Hardest quarter yet. A lot of group work and focus on social media in one of the classes and that was hard for me. I am starting to lean into social media a little bit, for the sake of singing and performing. I’d also like to find a photographer.

In other news, my job triggers are a little less awful and constricting. They’re present, and I still have to drive by the mental hospital on my way in, there’s no way around it. The rusty scrubs still make my heart pump cold blood. I was once in them and I don’t want to remember it, I don’t want to think about it. There are often patients here in them. It means suicide watch and they usually have a sitter as well. A duty I rarely get, for obvious reasons. If they’re not obvious, you must have only just found this blog.