Documenting my journey through the mental health system

The Great Purge continues. Thousands of layoffs across crucial people’s services – social security, FDA…and soon the VA.

Today they announced they planned to cut 80k jobs, to pre-2019 levels, before the PACT act and increased services to veterans affected by burn pits, among other things. Cutting 80k people would be devastating to veterans and our healthcare.

I knew this was coming though. How could it not? Secretary of VA Doug Collins has no spine at all. The point isn’t to revamp and reform, the point is to destroy. I’ve always been much more worried for the VA as a patient than I am as an employee. I very well may be cut, oh well. But I can’t lose my healthcare. I will die.

We are foot soldiers in a raging class war. I don’t have high hopes, but there has been remarkable resistance from all sides, even the courts. I’ll stick it out. I once told my boss I was in it to the bitter end. But I’m weary already.

President Musk sends me love letters every week and like a toxic ex, demands I reply each time. Some bullshit about listing five accomplishments from the past week. I was thinking on my next reply, I’d go into great detail on my patient’s I&Os (input and output), to include color and consistency, how much, how often, what got reported to the doctor, what kinds of bowel movements are normal, which ones indicate something is wrong, etc. I think it would be funny. I could describe other things, like bloody wounds and the guy who had nausea and vomiting. What does he expect? This is a hospital.

I may write a bunch of pre-made replies. I like writing, it will be like homework, BUT it’s something for which I DO NOT HAVE TIME. I work two jobs, I’m supposed to start graduate school soon.

I don’t know what to do outside worry.