Dialectical behavior therapy – two things can be true at once. I am dreading moving back home because my mother is very hard to live with, yet I also somehow am excited to get back and take control. I often have conflicting thoughts, confusion about who I am. This is a borderline trait. I am simultaneously extroverted and introverted depending on my labile mood, my roller coaster swings from manic to depressive states. I want to be motivated and do something more with a life that feels meaningless, but I also want to embrace what I have now, accept it and simply laugh at the meaninglessness.
The world isn’t black and white. My thinking often is. Sometimes this is a hard pill to swallow. I am learning to see the grey. I am bipolar but the world is unipolar. And I am maladapted. I feel like a square trying to fit into a round peg.
Bipolar in a Unipolar World
3 responses to “Bipolar in a Unipolar World”
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i’m only 18 and i feel like i’m hurting everyone i care about i was diagnosed wit bipolar disorder two years ago
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I’m sorry, you have a long life of full time bipolar management ahead of you.
They say think of it like diabetes. You wouldn’t tell a diabetic to stop taking their meds or insulin, and a person with bipolar is no different. You need meds and regular maintenance. Often you’ll need therapy. You’ll have to consciously learn new things and unlearn old things.
In a way you are lucky to receive a diagnosis so young. Bipolar usually manifests in males by the early 20s. I was diagnosed at 21.
If people care about you, hold onto that. Cultivate good relationships. Having a support system, even if it’s small, means a lot.
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Documenting my journey through the mental health system 
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