Documenting my journey through the mental health system

I have been off, but trying to bounce out of it. My charge nurse and coworker asked if I’d been taking my meds. I have! But I have been overwhelmed and frustrated with a lot.

I am killing it, though. Despite the government shutdown, 97% of VA employees will work and continue to get paid because legally the VA has to function with or without a shutdown. I’m formulating how to continue writing about this. Sometimes it’s hard to have an opinion at all. But I am not one of those “both sides suck” kind of people, I think clearly Republicans suck, even if Democrats are a bit like milquetoast. I’ve always been a bit of a renaissance man in this regard, fairly liberal and progressive. I do think, as a trans man (and I don’t bring this up a lot) the overindulgence in identity politics and woke culture may have got a little out of hand. Pronouns and that whole fight was just stupid. And as a trans person, I don’t like all the attention. Trans people really shouldn’t want all that attention. I don’t even identify as such, and no trans person should. I’m just a guy. We do believe in the binary after all, as we strive to be the opposite gender into which we were born.

But they’ve got us properly afraid. Project 2025 makes our existence illegal and there will be no way to update documents, access medical care, or otherwise live freely as the culture war rages and the MAGA crowd decries anything representing change and diversity. It’s all very depressing, and I don’t think it’s hyperbole.

I’ve done all I can to prepare. Fortified a bubble. Got all my documents in order – even updated my birth certificate. The VA is still giving me my testosterone, but it’s not the trans men they’re after. It was always the trans women.