Documenting my journey through the mental health system

I’m so stressed, and irritated, and depressed about everything. I hate to get all emo (there’s a reference that’ll date me) but it’s so hard fighting these mood swings and feelings. I did a lot of therapy to get more a handle on it and that helped and I still use that therapy to this day but sometimes, some days, there’s no controlling it. The enormity of the feelings wash over me in waves. I think of all the things going wrong – in my life, in the world. I dwell, and my mind is so stuck in a cyclical hell. No talking or rationalizing it away. It’s just all powerful and worse, it feels CORRECT. How is it not everyone is depressed and panicking?