Documenting my journey through the mental health system

I can’t think of what to sing for the next show! There is one, a Muse song, I can use for back up. But I still need another number, something! I scour my playlists for the right one. I have to focus on things like music and dancing and going out to perform in drag shows because I don’t want to get stuck in my head. The thoughts are horrific and full of dread. I’ve been lost, stuck in my own head before. Now the world is changing and hanging by a thread and there’s nothing I can do about anything. I am deeply disturbed by the orange madman and his sycophants waging war as though playing with toy army men. Men who never served, who never knew a day of any kind of service in their terrible lives.

It’s more than just war. Dead people, dead kids, dead environment. That comes with all the wars. This one stands out because it might be the end of the petrodollar. The oil is bought around the world with those dollars. It is the only thing backing the dollar, without it, it all falls apart. If the GCC pulls its investing from the US stock market (apple, Microsoft, google) the petrodollar collapses and the US plunges into depression. So, the war is more economic than anything. And there’s no way we can beat Iran. It’s one thing to bully smaller, weaker countries like Venezuela and Panama; Iran is not a small, weak country. They’ve been preparing for this for years – particularly in the form of their deliberately decentralized military.

So, I think about this geopolitical bullshit constantly, I was always interested in politics, social science, and world history. Where are all the answers? What would reveal all, shake the world to its core, and change everything? The Epstein Files. I firmly believe that – even Iran knows to differentiate between us and what they – and now I – are calling the Epstein class. Turns out Qanon was a little bit right – your government is run by pedophiles.

There is one cool thing to come out of this. The Iran Lego videos. Artistically, they are stunning. The lyricism, the iconography, the fact they are absolutely catchy – as the kids would say, “that slaps.” Who cares if it’s AI? AI can only be as good as the human feeding it. Explosive Media is the Iranian group behind the videos and it’s still not clear if that is an Iranian government account or just some tech savvy kids in Iran. When I saw the Pete Hegseth one, I actually got up to go show my mother what Iran had just released. It took time for the American Media to catch on. I’m fairly obsessed. The Epstein one was particularly devastating. Different musical style, different imagery. Packed a punch.

That Epstein shit is so sickening.