Documenting my journey through the mental health system

Hypomania continues unabated. I have to work hard to avoid rash decisions or avoid decisions altogether. I have to try and remember to have safe sex. I have to avoid spending money. I don’t really trust myself.

With heavy medication, I managed 5 hours of sleep today. That’s pretty good for me.

IOP tomorrow and I really hope I can understand better. I struggle conceptualizing just sitting with emotions and acknowledging them mindfully. They control me and feel too overwhelming.

I have waves of adrenaline rushes throughout my body, rhythmically. They feel good. There is a subwoofer in my head, womp, womp…there is electricity in my head, up and down my spine. Hypomanic rush.