Holy shit! I got so much done yesterday after IOP. I cleaned my whole apartment, made a giant pot of mashed potatoes, did my laundry, cleaned up part of my closet and got rid of a bunch of things to sell/donate. My energy load continued into the late afternoon, and after 4pm, I had officially been up over 24 hours.
I do not mind this little rush of hypomania. I think I can ride the wave and manage it. I’ve been taking my meds. I’m about to right now. Yesterday I took all my sleep meds plus an ativan right at midnight and slept hard till 6am. That is a whole six hours of sleep in which I only woke up once but was able to roll over and go back to sleep. That’s pretty huge for a chronic insomniac who is also hypomanic.
I have appointments today. I must see my supported employment case manager, he helps me maintain employment and deal with challenges that arise, and also helps me look for another job within the VA when they arise. I’ve had over 75 interviews over the past 10 years.
After that I have an interview at an outside hospital, NOT the one in which I was recently detained and restrained. They need renal care assistance, but I am only interested in part time/on call. I will not leave my VA job.
After that I have my twice monthly voice lesson. I would do more, but I lack time and it’s expensive, 60 dollars an hour. My manic high last winter had me spending a lot of money, like buying a hybrid car and starting voice lessons again. I had 10 years of operatic classical voice training, but I haven’t had a teacher in a long time so on a manic whim I bought some voice lessons and kept at it.
Because I was up so early, I have time to chill out a bit before my first appointment. I love coffee so it’s that and music and maybe a little cannabis. They say if I practice some mindfulness, increased energy, decreased need for sleep, and increased impulsive behavior is easier to manage.
Hypomania
4 responses to “Hypomania”
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Great post 👌 I can relate with you on this. When I’m manic I spend money like it’s nothing on a load of stuff. I’ve just recently got £20k written off due to my bipolar and I have said to all the creditors that they need to be more stringent in their qualifying criteria. I have just started a depressive phase where I’m sleeping a lot more than usual but I am still getting up at least after having 8/9 hours sleep via my alarm and then if I’m not awake my parents wake me.
I read once that if we are manic or at least hypomanic then are we functioning? I get loads done when I’m about a 7 on the scale (1 being severally depressed and 10 being hyper manic).
I wish you all the best and hope you have a wonderful weekend
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I like to think this is really just high functioning mania, especially with the lack of sleep part, for me. I’ve had a few severe mixed episodes in my life, hypermanic and severely suicidal, and ended up hospitalized twice for that alone. My doctor is monitoring me closely for increased mania because any more than this would probably be really difficult – I hear voices, get paranoid, and do really impulsive things when I’m hypermanic. Right now is a chance to develop some insight into this, something I’ve struggled with in the past.
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I have abilify and prn trazodone and seroquel. Makes the waves a little easier, less intense.
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