Documenting my journey through the mental health system

I hear voices sometimes. Two in particular. I call them Jack and Jackie. Jackie is a type of chaotic neutral presence in my head and Jack is a much more chaotic evil. He never says anything pleasant. They have both showed me things, especially Jackie. I will document that in another post.

For now I use a lot of medication and music to try to drown them out as best I can. I am working, I need to be able to perform essential job functions without them distracting me or making me behave in a concerning way. It is very hard to resist their pull, their influence. They both state they are not just in my head but outside of me, entities from a different dimension, and that I don’t belong here. They are very convincing.

I am too exhausted to talk about them further. They don’t like me talking about them.

I’m supposed to see my psychologist in the morning and they have yelled at me not to tell her about them but I promised my friend I would. She’s the only one who knows I am hearing these things. After a recent hospitalization I’m quite raw and reeling and very worried about my future.