Documenting my journey through the mental health system

I managed to get out of my apartment for a little bit. I drove around, soaking in the heat of my car. It warmed up to 70 today. I took my brother to a dentist appointment. He is having a variety of health and dental issues. Dental issues are common for those on suboxone. There’s even a class action lawsuit about it.

I was going to sing tonight but I am just not feeling it. I have had a little bit of relaxation at last, after two days of fighting for it, and dealing with flashbacks and dark thoughts, very intrusive thoughts. Today they were not as distressing.

I have one episode of Black Mirror left, the highly anticipated Callister sequel.

My mother is leaving out of town for a couple days for Easter, to see my nephews in Idaho. I am thrilled. I got one light fixture up, now I can get the other. I can do a thorough cleaning and clear out the foyer closet of crap. I need all the space I can get. I can empty the rest of my room out. I could even move some stuff into the closet, that part of the room will not receive the new laminate.

I’m going over tomorrow to bring some pool toys and a few ingredients for some dishes she is making first. There is a pool in her hotel and the boys are thrilled to go swimming in it. And I am thrilled to have unfettered access to my house for a few days.

The move marches ever closer, unrelenting. I dread it as much as I look forward to it.