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I startled awake at 6am on the morning of my first day, July 28, Sunday, as the MHT came into my room. The mental health technician (much like a CNA only not wiping ass like I do) wanted vitals. I looked quite disheveled and was exhausted from poor sleep and severe anxiety at my detention,…
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People started coming in to my tiny psych holding cell. First someone who said they were a social worker. Asked me about family, mental health history, substance use history. Asked if I wanted to kill myself. I did not really engage with her. She informed me I was detained while awaiting a designated crisis responder,…
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On July 25, 2024, the police and fire department showed up at my door. Someone called in a welfare check on me. I was pretty drunk, having abruptly left work in the middle of the night the night before, and about to take all my trazodone, ativan, melatonin – every pill I could that would…
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I hear voices sometimes. Two in particular. I call them Jack and Jackie. Jackie is a type of chaotic neutral presence in my head and Jack is a much more chaotic evil. He never says anything pleasant. They have both showed me things, especially Jackie. I will document that in another post. For now I…
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This isn’t going to be a pleasant blog. Nor will it carry an overall message of positivity or hope for better mental health. I have no advice. It will instead describe incredible pain, despair, fear, anger, and hopelessness. I will detail my experience in the mental health system and it won’t necessarily be organized, chronological,…
Documenting my journey through the mental health system 